May 13, 2018

First day at the new job.  I came prepared to spread new guy first day cheer and oatmeal cookies.  The cookies were a big hit.  In all other ways that really matter it went very badly.  All weekend, the voice in my head repeated for me “…relax.  What could be so bad?  Give it a chance–at least more than a day.  You could be mistaken.  Don’t make a snap judgment.  You’ll regret it.  Besides, it will look really bad if you leave after just one day.  Then what are you going to do?”

Thoughts from day two:

• You can’t go back home, but can you go back to an employer you left a day ago?

• Can I pretend I never left?  George from Seinfeld did.

• Do you have to repay the going away drinks coworkers buy you?  Because I would be willing to do that.

• Can I get my old desk back?  I would be okay if I didn’t.

• Will they laugh at and mock me openly or just in their heads and behind my back?  I am fine either way.

• Which would be worse though?:  Having this job or not having this job?

I did not freshen up my resume or re-active my job site profiles.  I did not walk out and not come back.  I did however schedule a visit with a shrink.

April 18, 2018

Shrink’s office.  I didn’t want to talk about my series of “terrible, horrible, no good, very bad days at work.  I wanted to talk about what I was going to do about it.  Not just about a few bad days at a new job and adjusting.

**How about you?  Write me at liveFor10@nineLives.productions.  Ever wondered “should I stay or should I go”?  How much investment is the right amount to give something before you cut your losses?  Do you have hasty actions you regret?  Actions you didn’t take that you regret not taking?  Feeling stuck?  Need a change?  Do people really just reinvent themselves into an entirely new career having no relation to the previous one?